Learning to Smoke

tetw:

by Tom Chiarella

This story isn’t about quitting smoking. It’s about starting. And starting, for me, included thirty-four different brands of cigarette, eleven lighters, spiritual revelations and moments of clarity, gatherings at alley mouths, unions with strangers on the streets of various cities, huddlings on a ragged porch watching the hand-cupped flare of a match in a snowstorm, a perpetual sore throat, a nagging cough, several puking sessions, a six-day headache, an increased appetite, a bout of vertigo, and a wicked case of what I can only call moral confusion. It also meant joining a kind of club, getting bitch-slapped by hegemony, trying to fit in, and not wanting to fit in.

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   I saw that smoking altered him just slightly, like a course correction...sea, one degree...

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    by Tom Chiarella This story isn’t about quitting smoking. It’s about starting. And starting, for me, included...

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    by Tom Chiarella This story isn’t about quitting smoking. It’s about starting. And starting, for me, included...

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